Look
Self-awareness
Pride's a coat and yes
I like to wear it
Buttoned up
Don't like to let no air in
With a pair of gloves that I hope doesn't perish
I discovered though when I get holes in them
And I let joy in
I'm in higher spirits
My mistakes are like a screamin' parrot
Just repeatin' lyrics
I can barely bear it
When I'm lost
Road is narrow
I am lookin' down it like a gun's barrel
Aren't we all searchin' for the serum that could help us breathe and leave our state of peril
All of us have made defensive scarecrows that we scatter 'round our fields and treat like heroes
When they scare away the things that we should cherish 'cos we're too embarrassed to admit the fear is
That we're lost
Yeah but what does it matter
I get so combative
Inside of me's a personal canvas
The paint can be splattered
Get messy when I start to get rattled
The heart of a savage
I'm quiet when I lurk in the shadows
But somethin' don't add up
I don't wanna be overdramatic
But look at the data, it's obvious that humans are fragile
We tend to get mad at the ones that call us out but the fact is
We need someone that'll be honest when we fly off the handle
I admit I throw a fit when I begin to unravel
Keep my wits, been off the grid but now I'm back in the saddle
My intent is not to rent
I like to own what I value
I could sit here on the fence or maybe pick up the paddle
I like to row against the current
That's the way that I travel
Opposite of what the grain does
Got the brain of a rebel
Take initiative
I'm diligent on every level
I never could settle, I like to keep my foot on the pedal yeah
I'd love to pack arenas and all but what I really wanna do is learn to handle my thoughts
And put the reins on 'em
Show 'em
I'm the one that's the boss
And pull 'em back when they get out of hand
I'm breakin' they jaws
I'm takin' the flaws that told me I could never evolve then pull a Bane on 'em, ask 'em
Oh you think you're in charge
You oughta know better
Ain't no way around it, I'm flawed
The traits that I want they say
I can't afford what it cost
But I manifested this
Failin's how you grow and learn your lessons kids
Take the worst and try to make the best of it 'cos when you fail just know that it's a test and if
You can learn to pick yourself back up again and train your brain to not be such a pessimist
It's okay to make mistakes just don't forget that there's a high road but I skip the exit when I'm lost
Yeah
When I'm lost
When I'm lost
When I'm lost
When I'm lost
Lost
Wow
These burdens are heavy and I'm hopin' it don't bury me
I used to be joyful and skip so merrily but now I'm too cautious and tip toe carefully
My mind left and it's nowhere to be found
Am I a big ol' parody
'Cos it's no fair to me
And now I'm at the point where I'm spendin' a grand a week on hypnotherapy
Look I'm tryna wash away my sins
I got a group of loved ones that ain't my friends
And if I ever take an L then they might grin
And they all wanna see me stay in the cage I'm in
So when it come to anybody there's no trust for no one
Man so what
My whole plan's to go nuts
My shoulders ready for more shrugs, I'm gon' judge
Anybody tryna enter my circle with no love, hol' up
My sanity's gone
I'd rather be torn from this planet they planted me on
Yes that's a reward
I'm actually bored with havin' a sore heart
It's torn apart from a family that I don't have anymore
Man hol' up
I was livin' so oblivious with millions
It really was a pity huh
A pity huh, it's kinda funny what a penny does
Mixed in with a mini buzz
I feel stuck
Life's got me by the neck with a blade against it
Guess I was runnin' late for the train and missed it
The only thing I feel is pain and vengeance
So Imma act out like a ragin' misfit
And every verse I lay gon' stay sadistic
You wanna hate me
Good, great, terrific
You'll never see the day where my anger's dismissed
You better go and change your wish list 'cos I
Yeah manifested this
Do not treat me
Manifested this like some adolescent kid
I am prayin' to the Lord with the Book of James hopin' He gon' add my testament
This dark cloud that's my residence
Demons knockin'
I don't have to let 'em in
I done made mistakes
Day to day
You probably can't relate
I just ain't the same when I'm lost
I just ain't the same when I'm lost
Yeah
When I'm lost
When I'm
When I'm lost
When I'm lost
When I'm lost
Lost
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